Don't blame me if I now hate you. Very very hate !!!!!!
During this time I relented and always try to understand. what you want, what you need. but it was never meant anything.
I sacrificed everything for You. everything .... everything I have. everything I could. He who makes me hurt, what a foolish when I fell in love with him? men who never want to care. no ............ care but in different ways. that's what he said. Should I forgive him? Although He never felt guilty? Even if he felt guilty he still did not do anything to fix it, right? I just realized, maybe this is called the limits of love and hate is very thin. not without reason I say this.
I was pregnant a few years ago. Fajar kurniawan know everything. and he still did not care. Anyway ..... I am a fool perhaps.I save this for a long time alone. I feel very depressed with my inner state. I have tried all ways. talk to him. pleading even pleaded. but what I got? only piece of the pain and said sorry. that enough? it is enough to fix all this? it enough to continue my life?
maybe ... God always has another way. For me and for Fajar. I can only forgive but I can not forget. maybe someday he'll understand what I feel. I believe, God does not sleep and he's the most fair judge. This is my way to release the burden. I am tired of fighting alone. if I had to let Fajar, alright ... Let me die.
During this time I relented and always try to understand. what you want, what you need. but it was never meant anything.
I sacrificed everything for You. everything .... everything I have. everything I could. He who makes me hurt, what a foolish when I fell in love with him? men who never want to care. no ............ care but in different ways. that's what he said. Should I forgive him? Although He never felt guilty? Even if he felt guilty he still did not do anything to fix it, right? I just realized, maybe this is called the limits of love and hate is very thin. not without reason I say this.
I was pregnant a few years ago. Fajar kurniawan know everything. and he still did not care. Anyway ..... I am a fool perhaps.I save this for a long time alone. I feel very depressed with my inner state. I have tried all ways. talk to him. pleading even pleaded. but what I got? only piece of the pain and said sorry. that enough? it is enough to fix all this? it enough to continue my life?
maybe ... God always has another way. For me and for Fajar. I can only forgive but I can not forget. maybe someday he'll understand what I feel. I believe, God does not sleep and he's the most fair judge. This is my way to release the burden. I am tired of fighting alone. if I had to let Fajar, alright ... Let me die.
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